Makeup Files

10 weeks. That’s 2 1/2 months on Nutrisystem. Cool, huh?

But before I get into the weigh-in, I wanted to talk to you about something that’s been on my mind since I started this adventure 10 weeks ago. I actually think about it a lot.

While it may seem like this has all been easy for me, I have been struggling, mentally.

You’ve probably heard this saying before:

“Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

This little motivational saying was coined by Kate Moss, someone who isn’t exactly known for having a healthy body. Yet I hear so many women on weight loss forums spouting it off.

I understand. It helps for motivation.

But here’s my problem: I haven’t been ‘skinny’ since I was around 6. I don’t know how it feels.

That’s been on my mind a lot. I don’t really have a frame of reference for what I’m working toward. So, let’s say I walk into the grocery store and see a display of Australian licorice. Yum. And I think, “is this really worth it? Is being skinny really worth not eating the things I like?”

Even worse, I think of the skinny people I know in my life. And they eat pizza. And burgers.

How come they can do it and I can’t?

Plus…okay, this may sound weird, but high self-esteem makes losing weight harder. I mean…I like myself the way I am, so I don’t have much motivation to change. Know what I mean?

I tell you, I’ve been wrestling with all of this for 10 weeks. Mentally anyway. As you can see by my progress, I haven’t let these thoughts push me off the weight loss wagon.

And I have you all mostly to thank for that. Besides having really good willpower anyway, it helps that I have my Makeup Files readers watching me and making sure that I don’t mess up. Nutrisystem is footing the bill for this, too, and I don’t want to let them down.

Even though I think of this stuff a lot, I’ve come to a few conclusions:

1. Just because I haven’t been skinny in over 20 years doesn’t really mean anything. I may not remember what it’s like, but I can certainly fantasize what it will be like when I’m finally skinny as an adult.
2. Yep, skinny people eat bad stuff. They just don’t eat it like I would have. It’s rare. And they don’t gorge themselves. So, once I’m skinny, I will eat out eventually, and have the occasional candy bar. I just won’t do it in excess. I’ll eat like a skinny person.
3. I need to focus on what I’m looking forward to when I get skinny, like having a wider range of stores to shop for clothes, making my own cute clothes, and wearing a bikini.
4. I’m not going to let these feelings (and love for bad food) stop me from succeeding.

I obviously haven’t let this stuff bother me too much, based on my weigh-ins. See?

I lost 3.4 pounds this week! That brings my total to 30 pounds lost!  In ten weeks!

Oh man, that’s so amazing. Now I have about 90 pounds left to lose. And that means that I’ve lost about 25% of the weight I want to lose.

Hooray!

My weekly progress so far:

• Week 1: –6.4 pounds
• Week 2: –2.4 pounds (-8.8 total)
• Week 3: –3.8 pounds (-12.6 total)
• Week 4: –2.4 pounds (-15.0 total)
• Week 5: –3.0 pounds (-18.0 total)
• Week 6: –1.6 pounds (-19.6 total)
• Week 7: –3.4 pounds (-23.0 total)
• Week 8: –1.0 pounds (-24.0 total)
• Week 9: –2.6 pounds (-26.6 total)
• Week 10: –3.4 pounds (-30.0 total)

I feel another Nutribear coming…

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